Beauty

I watched as she was running into class this morning. Her hair was hanging in ringlets and bouncing around her shoulders. I could not stop smiling. Oh sure she was late to class and as her mother I should have, and normally would have, lectured her on the virtue of being prompt, but today, for some reason, was different. I was thinking of something more important.... time.
I was caught up in a moment of awe. She is a beautiful creature. I kept thinking how blessed I am to be her mother. She is now a senior in highschool, I can't believe it. Where in the world did the time go?

I wish there were time machines, I would take a trip. The trip I would take would involve me being 17 years younger and holding
her in my arms again. I cherish the memories of those bright toothless smiles in the morning when she would wake, coos and giggles, bath times, slobbery kisses, oh....and the beautiful weed bouquets! Time passes so quickly.

We get caught up in the day to day cycles of our lives and we miss out, sometimes we miss things even when physically present. I think about times she has spoken to me and I was too deep in thought to hear. Times I felt something, or someone, else demanded my attention. I sure hope she understood, I believe she did. I wish I could have time back, but I can't.

Even though I can't bring time back there is more ahead. More time for long talks about life. More time for telling jokes, laughing, and yes... crying.


Totally understanding time is fleeting past brings me to the reality of living fully in this day.


Why has it taken so much "time" to figure this out? I don't know, but I do know that my time today is slipping by. I am going to go and make the most of THIS day.

Jen, I love you...